“Jillie, I’m sorry to say, but because of the Great Recession your Financial Aid has been cut in half. So, instead of $1,400 a month, you will only receive $800 for this year. I have the month of September and almost all of October. I knew right then with my $2,300 a month mortgage. School had to go. I had to find work that paid.
Where to start? I can’t remember ever being this physicaly exhausted. I think my work shoes are old and of course I don’t have $200 to buy new ones.
I have food, freedom, home, car, all I’m lacking is money. So, keeping that perspective. I realize that I’m feeling a bit calmer. A bit more protected because, I have not lost anything yet. And I have money from the barn rent, the cars and boats in the field.
I will see if I am enough of a hardship case to help me with my mortgage. And to get the paperwork out to help me with the hot water tank that burst yesterday. I do not have problems. I have inconveniences and feel so lucky to still have my home and my retirement.
I will not be foolish enough to throw it away because I’m tired. I have on the wall all my accomplishments since this nitemare started and everyday I say this is not doomsday. Doomsday is not here today. I pick myself up even if I have a crying bout (that is not controllable).