Where did my life go??
Two years and 7 months. And 3 summers. And I’am still suffering, financially, and mentally. Still crying and tearing up. I want to be happy.
I know, I have no right to complain, but the stress wears so thin. One more worry on top of soooo many. One good job.
I don’t miss Mitch anymore. I like living by myself as it is home. I miss security, stability, goals, plans, etc. Now. I’am still in Limbo and Fear.
Still begging Creditors. When will the humiliation end.
I eat but don’t taste. Sometimes, I swear I can’t breath. I can’t get any air to swallow.
I can’t seem to reach what I want. I want to buy clothes. I have worn the same black pants for every job. I do early, Banquet morning serving, every day I have worked.
I had unemployment from my last job. And payments from Parking cars in the field, and my Barn Renter. Right now, I have $70.00 to my name and bought 4 gallons of gas for my truck at $3.95 a gallon.
I knew Cascadia would not take me back, and I did not want to go back.
It is quite joyous knowing I have a Brain. I always gave it away to Nick. I never credited myself. But, that had a lot do do, with the way I was raised in that era of Society.
Women came last. Marriage came first. Men were King.
I need to pay attention now to all the good in my life, and have an Attitute of Gratitude.
SOB has had a deed of trust on the house since Trial.