Trish reached over and took my hand and gave it a quick squeeze. ”Well, enough already! Failure and Fear go hand in hand.” She shook her head and reached into her handbag. She pulled out her phone. ”I know someone who can help you.” I could hear the phone ringing and then Trish said. ”Penny, this is Trish. Oh, yes, dinner tonight. Right, great I’m looking forward to it. I thought that perhaps we.” She stopped talking and listened intently and then she said, ”By the way, I wanted to talk to you about my neighbor.” ”Yes, that one whose husband abandoned her. She needs work. Great. Thanks, hon. See you tonight.”
Not sure of my next step. I was relieved and once again found that people will help you if you just ask. A week later, I sat inside an Insurance office, working part-time for Trish’s best friend, Penny. I parked my beat-up red truck far away on my first day, and walked into the building. I found her Insurance Office door and knocked. Penny, tall, well dressed with wispy gray hair. Told me that she was 70 years old and had found a great new tool to use in Insurance. We went into a room with a large round wood table. And in the front a large white Dry Erase Board hung on the wall. Penny handed me a college-ruled composition book to take notes. And I grabbed a pen out of an extra-large pencil holder made out of the same wood as the table.
She explained that it was called ”Bank on Yourself.” And writing rapidly on the whiteboard, I was trying to write down everything she wrote, to put in my new crisp composition book. ”Jillie, Bank on Yourself is a company and strategy that lets you bypass Banks and Wall Street and take back control of your money and finances with whole Life Insurance Policies.
I like Penny. She is vibrant, enthusiastic, and happy to have me. My hours were from 3 to 8pm making phone calls to her client list about this new program. Today, I have $125.00 from Penny and $85 from a Boat Renter in the field. I have still not Foreclosed. I was still begging creditor’s. However, I did miss a payment on Novadebt. I have been late twice but not missed. ”I told the Operator. She said, ”She had heard a lot. But my story was the far worse story than any she heard.” She said, ”A woman spent 16 years in Prison. A crime she didn’t commit. But Jilly, your crime was you were too nice, and your Husband abused that. And girl, I know you have been struggling to pay your bills.
But do not give up! Not now you are trying and doing a Damn good job. So don’t give up now, Missy!” ”Thank you,” I said. ”Your kindness made my day!” I told her I would not give up! And that I would continue my practice of calling the Mortgage every other day. To remind them not to Foreclose on me!
I know now, that I can always get a Telemarking job. I know now, all my past fears I have are gone. I don’t miss Mitch anymore. And I am not crying as much. However, I do miss security, stability, goals, and plans. Penny would not be able to give me full-time work, so I continued to send resumes.
And three months later. I got a call.